off track

sittng in the underground or train these days i get funny thoughts about life. i don't know why, but somehow at times the world just seems to pass me by. it is as if everything is moving in a certain way, just i don't know the rules so i stay where i am. very strange feeling (but then very much the feeling of being in transit in a train for example. you stay still but still everything around you is moving on..). i wonder though if this effect is coming through in the rest of my life? maybe being on the train is deeply influencing my subconscious?

maybe i should stop breaking routines all the time. it just causes confusion, because nothing can be relied on. but then, going accross all the time could also be a way of getting along - just always as a stranger.