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Wenn einem das Wasser bis zum Hals steht, sollte man den Kopf nicht hängen lassen."

[Karl Valentin]

about the importance of saying goodbye

Ever since I first moved away from home I have felt the urge to properly say goodbye to people and not part in anger or resentment. The reason for this was quite plain: some people dear to me were of bad health and risk was that I might not see them again. Starting from this reasoning, I realised that I could not at all take for granted to meet anyone a 'next time'. So saying goodbye and clearing things up became important to me and looking back it seems a good choice.

Why I am writing this now? I arrived in town today after some months of absence and was struck by a headline telling a 16 year old boy had died having a crash with his motorbike. I felt sad about it, but the real pain came when I met one of my friends who told me that she had spoken and laughed with him just yesterday morning, and now couldn't come to terms with the fact that he was found dead the same day.

so really, there is no guarantee..

remote control

[as this posts caused some misunderstandings: i was not especially getting at informal agreements concerning when to meet for leisure activities, but rather the case when people's work attitudes are making it really difficult to get a serious thing done. of course also in private life this sort of behaviour can be quite annoying but it does not usually have such big consequences.]


there is not much which is more annoying and tedious than trying to organise certain people from the distance.. especially if they are of the sorts

a) "i don't know, maybe, i will tell you later" and then they will tell you bloody nothing, you have to run after them, and in the end they will complain about a suboptimal appointment

or

b) "yes, sure, we will do that, i will organise that" and then nothing is organised, noone knows what is going on, and in the end people will not even bother to tell they're not showing up.

don't get me wrong, it's not that i love planning so much or that i'm so pedantic as to wanting to predict every single bit of the future. i also really value spontaneity and everything. but all this avoidance of commitment is not just being relaxed and cool, it is actually wasting other people's time, nerves, and even money.
i wonder what ways of behaviour are open to me in order to react accordingly. talking to these people seems so fruitless, so in my anger i sometimes think that maybe i also should just stand them up?

shortcuts

i wonder when i will ever learn that shortcuts in maths(and everythink like it) are no good...

the unknown other

it seems to be a real sad truth - but slowly i am involuntarily sliding towards the conclusion that - no matter how hard you try - not even when dedicating a good part of yourself to it - you will not be able to really understand someone else. maybe sometimes a bit; if you have a lot of patience and the other one is helping you. but often enough they do not. i wonder if it is because they do not want to be known, because they are avoiding knowing themselves. somehow i can not believe that it should be because they generally do not want to be understood (i guess everybody in some sense has this need to be understood by people in their surroundings - or are there people who honestly do not care?).
so what is to be done with this? i find it annoying that all these attempts to bribe people out of the security of their shell should be so fruitless.. so i guess the only chance i have is to become very very old and never ever move place again.. maybe then i'll get lucky. other ideas?

the importance of team work...

the mask

no particular reason

the point where music links to real life... ;)

borderline

I wonder how it comes that deep emotions put into words so often come close to kitsch.. somehow it's nearly frustrating to notice how not suitable language is to communicate really important things. also wondering if humans will ever manage to dig out a more adapt tool.

Why life's like a puzzle

• if two pieces do not fit, they were not meant to be united.
• if two pieces nearly fit, they still do not really.
  
• if you force two pieces together you will only distort the picture and they will be missing somewhere else.
• each piece has it's own place, but the search for it can be long and difficult. at least it is bound to lead to success if one doesn't give up too early.
  
• everybody feels the emptyness of a missing piece. when it is finally found things fall into place and are cleared up.
• filling in gaps holds some surprises and might change your point of view.
• sometimes you can fit together a lot of pieces because you simply see the connections.
• sometimes you can not find any sense in all the chaos.
• either way, you keep going until you are finished.