your language or my language?

i'm ever again amazed how queezy i feel about speaking somebody's language when i'm at home if they don't know that i am capable of doing so. i really wonder why it makes me feel that awkward, and also if i'm the only person with that problem..

current mood ;)

modell eines frustfaktors

heute bin ich zufällig wieder einmal über die kommunikationsmodelle von schulz von thun gestolpert. besonders betroffen macht mich wieder einmal das teufelskreismodell, denn man steckt darin so oft selbst fest, ohne es bewusst zu merken oder ohne konkreten einfall wie man den kreis durchbrechen könnte. schnell gehts es meistens ohnehin nicht, genausowenig ohne beträchtliche (oder gerade wegen der notwendigen) persönlichkeitsentwicklung der beteiligten. und ob der willen oder die fähigkeit dazu im entscheidenden moment gegeben ist? ob wirklich die beteiligten selbst alles stemmen können? oder braucht es dazu hilfe von außen, um alternativen zu erkennen und blinde flecken mit inhalt zu füllen?

Loosing track of time

I am currently observing an interesting phenomenon: loss of temporal orientation. It feels like some kind of overflow in my brain, where suddenly I can not even remember that I wanted to do a certain thing at a certain point in time (like go to the shop on my way home from work). I just forget about them. In addition, I have to really pull myself together in order to not get lost between the days of the week (and consequently to be in the right places at the right times). It is like being completely alone in a silent bubble, sharing life just from the perspective of an observer, just seeing but not hearing, who does not really understand what is happening around them.

Even though I have a lot of explanations for this confusion, I still am amazed that it can happen. I still don't know if I actually even like it - sometimes it makes me feel very relaxed, loosening the mechanisms of control I usually put around my activities - but on the other hand, the moment where you just in time realize you nearly skipped something is never too pleasant..

Ich will meine Glühbirne!!!!

Zufällig bin ich heute über einige Artikel zum Glühbirnenverbot gestolpert. Sie bestätigen mich nur in meiner Meinung, dass das von der EU geforderte Verbot nicht nur sinnlos in meine Lebensgewohnheiten eingreift, sondern auch noch meine Gesundheit gefährdet (wer hat nicht schon mal eine Glühbirne zerdeppert oder Kopfschmerzen von schlechtem Licht bekommen?). Diese Bevormundung und der dahinterstehende Lobbyismus ärgern mich unglaublich!

Aus diesem Grund habe ich mich entschieden, diese Petition zu unterzeichnen und lade euch alle ein, dies auch zu tun. Es kostet wirklich keine Zeit und ist doch ein Mittel, die eigene Stimme in die Waagschale zu werfen.

Damit ihr das nicht 'blind' macht, hier noch einige Artikel, die euch überzeugen werden:

http://www.spiegel.de/wirtschaft/soziales/0,1518,644215,00.html

http://www.br-online.de/das-erste/report-muenchen/report-gluehbirne-klimaschutz-ID1230898145031.xml

http://www.welt.de/wirtschaft/article4281664/Deutsche-kaempfen-gegen-das-Gluehbirnen-Verbot.html


Eine Website, die sich dem Thema widmet:
http://pro-gluehlampe.de/

so what now?

this

Replace the code in the InitializeComponent method in the Mainform.Designer.cs file (hidden by default in the “Windows Form Designer Code” section) with the following code.

or that:

Der Inhalt der Methode darf nicht mit dem Code-Editor geändert werden.

who am i? a bit of a, a bit of b, or maybe c?

c# doesnt allow multiple inheritance because of all the mess which can be caused by it.. however i was really fascinated by an article on codeproject, describing some workarounds. i'm still not convinced that i ever will apply their solution, but i still enjoyed the read ;)

do your maths

you WILL need it in some unexpected moments... it just will creep around in the darkness and suddenly jump in your face! especially these matrix transformations, they seem to love playing these games...

my math teacher would feel touched by how much i now try to remember her explanations ;)

one night and one day of real holiday

today i had one of the most wonderful days in a long time at the former place of my grandparents. the setting was as follows:

no mobile phone





no internet or computer






thanks to these uncommon surroundings i've been experiencing a whole set of things which not usually come my way:


sleeping on a bag full of hay, which was quite strange at first, but had a really nice odour, which made me sleep soo well :)


with a very nice sight when waking up (and having breakfast outside ;)


i went strolling round the village,


playing with some calves


and then heated the oven - yes, with a proper fire!


on which we were baking our own bread, some even with fresh herbs.








apart from all these things, i've been re-exploring all the things which i knew as a kid - the whole place is so much smaller now! but it was perfect to be there, enjoy the beauty of it as well as a lot of nice memories of long gone times.

dividing by zero