shortcuts

i wonder when i will ever learn that shortcuts in maths(and everythink like it) are no good...

the unknown other

it seems to be a real sad truth - but slowly i am involuntarily sliding towards the conclusion that - no matter how hard you try - not even when dedicating a good part of yourself to it - you will not be able to really understand someone else. maybe sometimes a bit; if you have a lot of patience and the other one is helping you. but often enough they do not. i wonder if it is because they do not want to be known, because they are avoiding knowing themselves. somehow i can not believe that it should be because they generally do not want to be understood (i guess everybody in some sense has this need to be understood by people in their surroundings - or are there people who honestly do not care?).
so what is to be done with this? i find it annoying that all these attempts to bribe people out of the security of their shell should be so fruitless.. so i guess the only chance i have is to become very very old and never ever move place again.. maybe then i'll get lucky. other ideas?

the importance of team work...

the mask

no particular reason

the point where music links to real life... ;)

borderline

I wonder how it comes that deep emotions put into words so often come close to kitsch.. somehow it's nearly frustrating to notice how not suitable language is to communicate really important things. also wondering if humans will ever manage to dig out a more adapt tool.

Why life's like a puzzle

• if two pieces do not fit, they were not meant to be united.
• if two pieces nearly fit, they still do not really.
  
• if you force two pieces together you will only distort the picture and they will be missing somewhere else.
• each piece has it's own place, but the search for it can be long and difficult. at least it is bound to lead to success if one doesn't give up too early.
  
• everybody feels the emptyness of a missing piece. when it is finally found things fall into place and are cleared up.
• filling in gaps holds some surprises and might change your point of view.
• sometimes you can fit together a lot of pieces because you simply see the connections.
• sometimes you can not find any sense in all the chaos.
• either way, you keep going until you are finished.
  

As real as possible

When once upon a time people pushed the use of pc's in offices very often 'reducing paper' and therefore 'increasing tidyness' and 'better organization' were important selling points - as virtual desktops somehow tend to enforce these things.. but for the price of keeping people structured against their natural habits :)
As now it becomes fashionable to adapt machines more to human needs than vice versa, new interfaces start to make chaos possible again.

Check out the video:

silhouette

long forgotten habits

maybe it was due to my early start this morning, i couldnt really determine it. but the day somehow was strange, time passed very quickly and also i did a lot of things which i had not addressed for weeks or even months. and they all somehow fitted in.
but the most amusing and curious thing happened when i went to the state library to pick up some ordered books. you have to search them by yourself in huge shelves (and it was the first time i ever picked up something there) but somehow i found them immediately, they literally made themselves noticed. one of them was not so big so i decided to keep it out of the big bag for reading on the tube. however, i could not bear to go underground so soon again so i choose to walk to the next station where i had to change the lines anyway. but still, i was curious about that book and opened it up, already walking. and this is when it happened; i switched back into that habit i had as a kid: walking along the streets, navigating nearly without taking my eyes from the pages, my head in another world, reading a book until i got to my destination. the moment of arrival then seems like an awakening, returning from some kind of daydream to reality. and as every sudden awakening it has this strange but pleasant moment of feeling startled - about the place at which you happend to be now.